what am i doing with my life

when i was a child, all i dreamed about was one day being famous and traveling the world singing in every country on every continent. 16 years of my life, this is all i wanted. all i hoped and wished for... for almost 6,000 days. and since i was 10, i had been planning on going to christopher newport university when i graduated high school, to major in musical theatre. i thought i was sure that this is what i wanted to do. but over the past few months.. i've been second guessing myself on all these dreams. like, how are these dreams even possible. i will never be able to do the things i want to do. the dreams that i have for myself, i can't imagine actually fulfilling them. because that's all they are.. dreams. not reality. i need to stop these dreams.. it's just not logical. and don't get me wrong, i'm not second guessing the "talent" i have, i just know i will never be a famous anything. it just won't happen. BUT i'll also let you know, that i won't end up as a cashier at mcdonalds...... God has another plan for me. i know he does. somewhere..

well,

i've been legally licensed for almost 48 hours, and have driven no where. hm. i need to get off these drugs i guess. mom won't let me drive til i "detox and sober up." haha, she's a little crazy. btw, wisdom teeth are gone, and i've had a suprisingly pleasant recovery. goodnight all!

summmer nights

Today was just, great! I woke up, got ready and then went to see Sarah Shaw today. I was so happy to see my sweet friend for the first time in a while (like a week...) We ran some errands, then went to Carytown to walk around. We ran into Elizabeth & Kim, had to hold our breath because it smelled like sewage, and got 69 cent ice cream cones from Mcdonalds. It was great... so then we went to the mall to walk around for a little, then went back to her house for a little. Soon after, daddy came and picked me and Tim up and we headed over to bible study (only to arrive 45 minutes late. Woops.) Bible study was great, much more crowded than last week, but Joni did wonderfully, as usual :). After bible study, we all argued about what we would do after. Most of my friends went to belle isle... to get rained on. Ellory, Tim, and me went to Devin's to watch the bachelor with Dev, Gabe, and Sarah. That was awesome... i was on the verge of tears when she sent Kirk home. So then, me and tim had a loud fight about who would sit in the front on the way home. Being the good friend I am, i surrendered and sat in the back. Just to keep the peace... So me and el dropped him off, then went back to my house and had some good conversation & i got alot off my chest that needed to be removed. Ellory left about 5 minutes ago... and now i am sitting here. I should go to bed, but I'm just not tired.. but i'm happy. Summer's just getting better. And in 4 days when i have my lisence..... I just can't wait!!! Love yall :)

Isn't he cute? I want one...

Come down from your tower, please.

or stay up there & shut up

Summer.

Ah, sweet summertime. A time to have fun, hang with friends, and catch up on some rest. For the past week since I've been home from choir tour, i've been going going going non stop. So today, i just took some time for myself, stayed home, watched america's next top model all day, and just relaxed. Now normally, i would be quite annoyed with myself and "bored." But today, i was happy to be able to just relax and spend some time alone. I do love my friends, and I do love being with them all the time, but i am glad i decided to just take some time off from my crazy scheduale, and breathe. But, tomorrow is another day... starting early & ending late. But good news is, I get my lisence in exactly one week. Oh i cannot wait.... I've waited so long. :)

[Hope everyone had a great saturday!]

choir tour '10.

i learned so much, made some great lifelong friends, and had a great time. pictures to come later.