ke$ha or lady gaga?

gaga, never ceases to amaze.
ke$ha... yeah. never ceases to amaze.

so... who is more entertaining to you? hahahah

choir tour is only a few short days away (4), and i am beyond ready. i cannot wait to get away. to maybe change people's lives... to sing to people who may have never heard God's word before. and to just spend time with some great friends God has blessed me with. i really am super excited!

but for the rest of the week..... i need rest. :)

Happy Monday!

society today.

i hate it. why must girls be tortured to death about the way they look? why do magazines only put in stick thin gorgeous models. it makes everyone think, oh that's what i'm supposed to look like. and then girls go through hell trying to make themselves be "perfect." why can't every person realize there is no such thing as "perfect." not only do girls see the "perfect" girls in the magazines, boys see the pictures and think that's what their girlfriend is supposed to look like. and if their significant other is not like the girls in the magazines, then that girl isn't good enough for him. what kind of society is this? why do girls put themselves through the crap. nobody deserves to be told they aren't good enough for someone else. it's wrong.
i wish that there were more plus size models, actresses, singers, and dancers in this world to prove to everyone that just because we're bigger, doesn't mean we can do what we want to in life.
God made every girl and boy the way he wanted them to be. It's not like he was in the process and he messed up. God thinks you're perfect. God thinks i'm perfect. And no one in this world can ever judge me, except my father in heaven.
Just a thought for today.

(Happy Tuesday)

wow.

so... right now i have this amazing feeling all inside me... like i cant stop smiling, i have butterflies, and im too hyper to sleep... if the rest of tmy summer is this good... woo i am gonna be on cloud 9 for the rest of my life. gotta thank jesus, and heather for her suggestion to read ecclesiastes. amazing stuff.. thank you :)

HOPE EVERYONE HAS A GREAT REST OF THE WEEKEND :)

ps.. wouldn't that be a cute tattoo? maybe? :)

happiness

is possible. and i know when i feel it, and when i dont. now i know what i need to do. stephen poore your sermon was perfect last night. thank you.

i wish i had been taking notes... or got it recorded.


well... this is what my bed looked like when i woke up this morning. crazy dreams last night? ugh. dear God please give me peace and rest. oh and thanks for pretty days and moments for relaxation.

tomorrows friday........ thanks JESUS!

thoughts, feelings, and some random words.

friend (noun)- a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.

A friend is someone who doesn't screen your calls. He/She is also someone who tries to stay in touch despite an infathomable distance between you and him/her. A person who would never intentionally hurt you, lie to you, deceive you, manipulate you, abuse you and who takes great care to be kind to you, honest with you, dependable and loyal. Someone who you trust without question because they have never given you any reason not to trust them. Someone you enjoy being around and look forward to seeing.
A real friend is someone who: a)it's okay to fart in front of. b)you don't mind talking to on the bus for atleast 20 minutes. c)can borrow $5 and never has to pay it back d)you'll actually call up do stuff.

(all definitions from here.)

i am thankful for the friends i have who stick by me through anything. and i am ready to move on from the people that are not real "friends."
recently, there's been a certain friend of mine who used to fit those descriptions perfectly. but recently, she's been doing all the opposite. i have put so much effort into trying to get her back in my life, (for crying out loud, we've been friends for 10 years), and she has put little to no effort in fixing things. so why should i be straining and stressing about it anymore? if she doesn't care anymore.. why should i? i have plenty of new friends that care about me... right? whether they're using me to get to one of my friends, i don't care. atleast they talk to me and hangout with me. i don't even know why i'm blogging about this. i'm so sorry to everyone that i never write anything positive anymore.
the friendship that i'm losing right now, it means a whole lot to me. she was my best friend and confidant for over half my life. i just want closure. like, what did i do to deserve this? we aren't in middle school anymore, and i want answers. not ignored phone calls and flaky plans. thats why i just want to give up.

but let's be posi for a lil bit..... :)
THANKYOU to all of yall that truly care about me, and are such great awesome people. i look up to every one of you, and truly love you guys, my friends. you're all beautiful and just good people. God really blessed me when he sent my family to west end assembly of God. i'm happy that i'm involved in such a great youth group with people like you guys. so thanks for being great :)

let's make this longer why dont we... haha!
last night was my final chorus concert of the year. tears were shed, laughs echoed all around, and we put on an amazing show. i love my girls SO much and i'm going to miss every single one of the seniors. and after the concert, all of us headed to fridays for some yummy food, i got macaroni :) haha, and we all had the best time. i'm so glad i finally fit in somewhere, and have such great friends at school. thank God for showchoir!!

WELLLL, HAPPY SATURDAY YALL. it's pretty out, enjoy the day :)

friday :)

today is friday! and tonight is my last chorus concert ever with my showchoir girls... (until next year of course), but i am sad to see my senior friends leaving. i love all my friends so dearly, and next year wont be the same without them! but i know they are all excited to go off to college and get on with their lives. well tonight will be very emotional and exciting, so i'm ready. letsss go