thoughts, feelings, and some random words.

friend (noun)- a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.

A friend is someone who doesn't screen your calls. He/She is also someone who tries to stay in touch despite an infathomable distance between you and him/her. A person who would never intentionally hurt you, lie to you, deceive you, manipulate you, abuse you and who takes great care to be kind to you, honest with you, dependable and loyal. Someone who you trust without question because they have never given you any reason not to trust them. Someone you enjoy being around and look forward to seeing.
A real friend is someone who: a)it's okay to fart in front of. b)you don't mind talking to on the bus for atleast 20 minutes. c)can borrow $5 and never has to pay it back d)you'll actually call up do stuff.

(all definitions from here.)

i am thankful for the friends i have who stick by me through anything. and i am ready to move on from the people that are not real "friends."
recently, there's been a certain friend of mine who used to fit those descriptions perfectly. but recently, she's been doing all the opposite. i have put so much effort into trying to get her back in my life, (for crying out loud, we've been friends for 10 years), and she has put little to no effort in fixing things. so why should i be straining and stressing about it anymore? if she doesn't care anymore.. why should i? i have plenty of new friends that care about me... right? whether they're using me to get to one of my friends, i don't care. atleast they talk to me and hangout with me. i don't even know why i'm blogging about this. i'm so sorry to everyone that i never write anything positive anymore.
the friendship that i'm losing right now, it means a whole lot to me. she was my best friend and confidant for over half my life. i just want closure. like, what did i do to deserve this? we aren't in middle school anymore, and i want answers. not ignored phone calls and flaky plans. thats why i just want to give up.

but let's be posi for a lil bit..... :)
THANKYOU to all of yall that truly care about me, and are such great awesome people. i look up to every one of you, and truly love you guys, my friends. you're all beautiful and just good people. God really blessed me when he sent my family to west end assembly of God. i'm happy that i'm involved in such a great youth group with people like you guys. so thanks for being great :)

let's make this longer why dont we... haha!
last night was my final chorus concert of the year. tears were shed, laughs echoed all around, and we put on an amazing show. i love my girls SO much and i'm going to miss every single one of the seniors. and after the concert, all of us headed to fridays for some yummy food, i got macaroni :) haha, and we all had the best time. i'm so glad i finally fit in somewhere, and have such great friends at school. thank God for showchoir!!

WELLLL, HAPPY SATURDAY YALL. it's pretty out, enjoy the day :)