Saturday, May 29, 2010

no, we cannot pretend that airplanes are shooting stars.

first. i want a husband... now.
i'm patiently waiting though :)

second, i love my best friend.
one of the realest people right now.
third, i want to go back to the beach.

it's so beautiful.

and fourth, i'm so glad i got to hang out with my dad today. i got alot of anger & frustration out.. and my mood feels alot lighter. i love him. and he took me shopping.. so that might have helped a little too. thanks for being my best friend allen.

Friday, May 28, 2010

i don't know what i feel anymore. i feel.. numb. i'm not depressed... and i'm not "happy." there are days when i am so happy, i think that there is no way life could get better.... then the next day. everything crumbles to pieces. little, miniscule pieces that cannot be fixed. i love my friends. my real, genuine friends. there are people who pretend to be my friends, and they are completely insignificant. i can't wait to grow up, graduate, and get the hell out of this city. i want to pursue my life elsewhere. richmond is not where i belong. i love my church, and the few friends that i do have. but everyone else... i can't bear it anymore. i'm tired of holding in my thoughts and not being able to express myself fully. so i've decided to completely let my guard down, and see how many friends i'll have after that. see if the friends that i do have, will stick by me. this isn't meant to be like i'm saying i don't love/appreciate the people i know. i genuinely love all of my friends, even the aquaintences. but the fake, two faced female dogs walking around my school, i cannot wait to get away from that.

well on a lighter note, i am excited for choir tour. a week away from richmond, with a few of the greatest people i know, is going to be awesome. it will be another chance to spread my wings and meet new people. and it's going to be an awesome experience ministering to people who come to see us perform. if we can save atleast one person... it would be incredible. well. i'm gonna go now, it's the weekend. thank you God.

Monday, May 24, 2010

mondays

why do they exist.
i am ready for summer.
adventures, beach, tanning, friends, kings dominion, more friends, no makeup, sleeping all day, chilling all night, swimming, running around richmond, traveling to new places, girl time, boy time, bonfires, parties, i won't want it to end.
but then school starts again

Monday, May 17, 2010

i wanna be a billionaire.....

ahhhh this is my favorite song. as awkward as the "freakin" sounds, it's better than the F word :)


Saturday, May 15, 2010

i absolutely love

my friends. i have no idea where i'd be without them. they bring the smile to my face everyday. thanks guys :)

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

i need

anger management classes. seriously. i'm losing my mind.

Monday, May 10, 2010

i'm realizing this more and more everyday. i am so socially retarted. people may not believe this, but i'm one of the most awkward people you'll ever meet. i'm always nervous that someone is judging me, or looking at me funny. and 9 out of 10 times, they are. you may think that because i'm loud and obnoxious, i don't have a problem talking to people. but i do. i have a hard time opening up to people, like truly opening up to people. and i know i blog and tweet about things i need to complain about all the time, but that's nothing compared to the crazy things running around in my head. this isn't supposed to be a depressing blog, just something i've realized about myself. it's pretty funny actually.
hope everyone had a splendid day!

Saturday, May 8, 2010

blogging from the beach..






hello world! i missy you but.... its so pretty here.. ps. no make up & not naked. promiseeee love yall

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

haaay

new outlook, God put me here for a reason. i'm gonna find it, embrace it, and love it. i'm excited to see whats going to happen next. and i promise to be happier on here. i guess for a while i looked at this blog as a place to complain. but... not anymore. (well atleast 3 out of 4 posts will be happier!) promise :)

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

...?

what am i doing wrong? why does she get the upper hand?
i know the only reason i have so many friends is because of her.
am i jealous? yeah. i am. and i admit it.
she's funnier, prettier, and obviously has a better personality.
but why should i care? i shouldn't.

i'll stop talking about it. i'm just tired of knowing the things that i know.
i need sleep

Sunday, May 2, 2010

sundays :)


they are the best. today was a beautiful day, but silly me didn't check the weather, so i had no idea, until i went outside to leave for church. didn't have time to changa, oh well! but anyway, i went to church & enjoyed a lovely service, then went out to lunch/adventures with mary, lorraine, sarah, lindsey, and gavin. after some crazy reckless driving and blasting "hey soul sister" down pump road, we ended our adventures with coldstone ice cream. (which was packed, by the way) but today was good :)





inppropriate? too bad :)

Saturday, May 1, 2010

i'm just a silly girl with a silly little crush.. hahaha

dear YOU,

i like you. and i haven't felt this way in a while.. it's a good feeling. you make me smile and laugh, and you even laugh at my stupid jokes.. which aren't funny.. ever. your sweet personality and understanding attitude amazes me. thanks for being so cool. now... marry me? okay maybe not all that yet but. i like getting to know you better.. and you make me happy. so thanks :)



TODAY: is saturday... i'm at home.. blogging cause theres nothing else to do. some would say "go outside, it's beautiful!" yes, i am aware. but i will continue to stare outside and admire it from my kitchen table, because i cannot go outside or i will die. allergies will be the death of me. and most people are getting over them, but like every other year, mine are worse at the end. everyone have a good day!! (: